It's been a while since we've had a talk and there are a couple of things I think we've let slip that need our attention. I realize that in the past year you have had to carry a disproportionate amount of the weight around here. I understand if you are none too pleased about that - but I have a plan to rectify the situation. This plan involves cooperation - something not all of us have seen a lot of lately.
I understand you may feel slighted. It's tough to stand firm when things are buckling above you. I know it's a curvy path from where you are to where my head is -- but the only way for us to make this work is to come together.
I'm bringing this up now because of what happened this morning, Don't worry, I plan to talk to the lungs and legs as well, but let's not deflect criticism. When I decided to try this running from nobody hobby that seems to have taken hold - I wanted to start out nice and slow so that we could all get a feel for it and blend seamlessly from one brittle configuration to a smooth cohesive structure. Suffice it to say -- I'm a little disappointed, and a little hurt.
I can understand the lungs not cooperating at first. Throw a little youthful asthma and about a decade of cigarettes into the mix and your lungs would be pretty pissed at you too -- if lower backs had lungs. I can be a little more patient with the lungs because I know we're now working through those obstacles and towards a brighter future.
The legs are more than eager to get started. They are starving for action and practically swung us all out of bed this morning. True, things did seem to slow on the last leg of our journey (no pun intended), but there was a genuine effort there. I joked with them a little about the whole affair, likening it to that scene in Nightmare on Elm Street when that girl (Nancy) tries to escape Freddy only to find her climb slowed by the marshmellowy substance that has replaced the staircase. Yeah, that was awesome.
Oh Espaldita - it is always so easy to get distracted when talking with you. I rarely if ever get to see you - and yet I always know you are there for me. I want to be there for you too, Espaldita. I want our relationship to grow stronger. That is why I am running. That is why we need to run, together. All relationships take work, Espaldita, but together we can overcome these painful first paces and work towards something wonderful. Before we know it everyone will be on board, and we shall stand united once again.
I used to believe that anytime I tried to exercise, the effort was nulled by the lasting pain you would cause me. I want to exorcise that pain. I want us to strengthen the bonds we share. I believe it begins with you and I, Espaldita. If we lead, the Legs will follow. Given time -- the Lungs will begin to see the benefits and join the cause. And don't forget Poland, we'll always have Poland, my darling Espaldita. See you tomorrow? Same time?
Love,
Kevin
No.I have no wish for this...exercise thing you have involved me in. Were I not permanently connected I would secede from the union. I miss the days of nintendo and playstation when I was left alone to do as I please. Now you want to be all active! The nerve!!
Please note I am forming a coalition of the unwilling. I have been in contact with the arms, buttox, and ankles. They are not ready to join yet but they will come around in time when the full effects of this policy become apparent.
Tomorrow is Luna. Don't forget "Cindy tastes like barbeque...Cindy tastes like cream" see you there physical one.
Unfortunately - I don't think I'm gonna be able to make it. I have a midterm tomorrow and Thursday -- both of which find me slightly behind in my studies. I'm hitting the books now though -- so you never know...But I wouldn't expect for you to see me there...physically.
do you still smoke? when did you give it up? was it easy? i'm thinking i'm ending my stint soon.
I quit smoking the same day I left Georgia - July 7th. I'm sure quitting is difficult -- but in light of where I was and where I was heading, it was a rather easy decision I made and followed through on, this time. I still get urges -- but nothing like what it was a few months ago. For me -- everything was simplified because I completely changed my environment. My routine was shattered -- the people I hung out with are hundreds of miles away...I'm living as a different person than I was then. I don't know if it has done anything for my happiness levels or health. That's kind of why I started running. I've been feeling down more often lately -- and I hear excercise is a natural way to pick yourself up.
Worth noting: I've tried to quit several times before. I'm still not out in the clear. I don't know if you ever can be. However, in this instance, I feel my will is strong. After my last effort at quitting, I picked it up again some odd months later almost as an anger management tool. Actually -- it was a tool to avoid dealing with a lot of things. It was a distraction -- and a lot of wasted time.
So no, quitting isn't easy. There are a lot of things that will have to change in order to change this one thing. You should quit. But you should really want to quit. If you don't really want to quit -- it's going to be a lot more difficult than it already is...
This has been a public service announcement from Kevin at Yezbick.com. The opinions expressed here do not necessarily reflect those of current and former smokers and should be taken with that grain of salt. Further comments on the matter are welcome but not necessarily sanctioned by the aforementioned.
pickle ?
As unintentional as it was -- there is an untruth in this entry. I wouldn't call it a lie -- as that would imply that it was a deliberate distortion of the truth. Instead - we will call it a lapse in memory - most likely brought on by the imbibing of adult beverages. While I still believe I quit smoking on July 7th -- the truth is that I did smoke a few -- 3 -- cigarettes the night I went out for drinks back in October.
A slight lapse in judgement that I don't feel has rendered the gains I have made thus far any less remarkable...
This came to me as I sat in the library, reading Sartre's war diaries - and he begins to remark on circumstance and will power. Notably in Notebook 5 - pg 124. He makes a reference to Sinclair Lewis' Babbit -- which sits idle in my closet at home. This reference now makes it a prime candidate in the to read list.
But all that can be discussed later -- I thought it only fair that I should come clean with my err -- so that it isn't brought before at some future date where it may be used as evidence to bring my administration to its knees.